Heart Needs Fixing

I finally saw my cardiologist and received my MRI results. I think the stress of it all just hit me the morning I saw Dr. D. I live in denial with what's going on for the most part. I feel "normal," so I can't quite believe that I have a serious heart problem. But as soon as I saw Dr. D. and he started talking about surgery, it all became too real. It hit me like a tonne of bricks and I completely panicked in his office- felt faint, nauseous, and dizzy. Not fun. He told me that I definitely have an Atrial Septal Defect. The right side of my heart is strained and dilated, so that would explain why I've been having chest pain when I exercise. My inferior…
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I Survived an MRI!

 I did it! I survived an MRI. I didn't even take the Ativan that Dr. D. had prescribed me when I told him how claustrophobic I am. I feel like I can do anything right now! I was beyond afraid to have this test, and last night I could not sleep at all. It's not so much claustrophobia as it is being stuck in a place where I can't escape. I guess that's more so agoraphobia. I was so afraid that I'd have a full blown panic attack. But I didn't! Months of meditation have surely paid off. My appointment was early so I stayed downtown to avoid rush hour traffic. I headed over to St. Paul's Hospital at about 6:30 am and waited for the Radiology department to open,…
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