Heart Needs Fixing

I finally saw my cardiologist and received my MRI results. I think the stress of it all just hit me the morning I saw Dr. D. I live in denial with what's going on for the most part. I feel "normal," so I can't quite believe that I have a serious heart problem. But as soon as I saw Dr. D. and he started talking about surgery, it all became too real. It hit me like a tonne of bricks and I completely panicked in his office- felt faint, nauseous, and dizzy. Not fun. He told me that I definitely have an Atrial Septal Defect. The right side of my heart is strained and dilated, so that would explain why I've been having chest pain when I exercise. My inferior…
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A Hole, Eh?

I spent the entire weekend in panic mode, non-stop Googling and diagnosing myself with various diseases. I found out that an "urgent" referral means "significant potential for early intervention to save life/prevent hospitalization or functional impairment," so that scared me, needless to say. What helped me get through this weekend was my mindfulness practice. In addition to my regular meditation, I kept telling myself that "Right now I am okay." At this very moment in time I feel fine. Nothing has changed since before my echo a week ago, ergo, I am okay and should stop worrying. It really did help. I met my cardiologist, Dr. D, this morning. I was super anxious so I walked up and down the street near his office, pacing, trying to burn off my…
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Urgent Referral?

Okay, now I'm scared. All was well in the world, as I worked away today, until I went on my break and checked my phone for messages. I had a voicemail from my GP saying to call back today to confirm an appointment with my specialist. My specialist? Say what? So I called my GP, confused, and was told that I had been urgently referred to a cardiologist! The receptionist wouldn't tell me anything about my "condition," just that I needed to call the cardiologist's office today to confirm my appointment. So I called the cardiologist's office and told them my name, "Oh, right, you're the urgent one." What??? Why am I urgent? And why on earth am I being referred to a cardiologist in the first place? I'm a…
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